48 more days... But I'm gritting my teeth to go through these empty days...
Sigh, not that I don't like home, just that I miss everything there...
Praying that time flies pass quickly...
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Friday, June 18, 2010
T3T
Usually, I don't like to write about arguments and quarrels I had... Because it's not a happy memory, I just want to delete it from my brain and move on remembering the happy memories... But this one, I must remember it always and forever, because it's a lesson for me to learn, that I must never ever repeat the very same mistakes ever again in my life...
Darling and I were happily smsing each other yesterday... until he said something about going to flirt... Being an emotional, easy-to-switch-on-the-wrong-switch, unreasonable, 'small-gas' little girl, I got flared up even if he told me the real truth that it's just a joke. And that's where all hell broke lose... I was thinking, 'Okay~ You think its funny huh!? I'll show you what's funny...' So I fired at him through sms... And he got the wrong idea... I didn't mean that I don't like him going out meeting his friends or whatever. I just got my emotions into me again... At that very moment, I really realize the meaning 'Disaster comes out from the mouth'... I felt very regret...
I know he really won't go out to flirt, not only because I trust him, it's because he proved to me. But I just got overwhelmed by the feeling that I want to overpower him back so I yelled. And it was a very very wrong move... Gosh, my ego is one big pain in the butt... I am super EGOISTIC! Ego, ego, ego, it's always my pride and my ego... and my damn stupid emotions... How I wish I can put these down and be a truly perfect girl that he sees me as...
Even though he put all the blame on himself... Even though he don't wanna admit that it's my fault to begin with... In truth, the problem starts from me... A big sticky note to self for once and for all... "NEVER LET EGO AND PRIDE GET IN BETWEEN US ANYMORE"...
How egoistic I can be? I'll tell you how... Sometimes, I get a very ticked off when people tried to teach me something I don't know. Yes, my pride ate me up and I lose my rationality to it... I'm still finding ways to get over it... Maybe I need a psychologist... Yes, I'm serious...
He hasn't talked to me for the whole day. Even though I sent a single sms to him, he still replied me coldly... I guess he hasn't finished getting mad over the whole incident and over me (even if he doesn't admit he is)... I felt very bad since last night till now... I wonder what is he doing... Sulking is definitely... But... I really miss him a lot... He once said I can leave him be and he'll find me back after he felt alright... But waiting is difficult... I don't dare to bother him... But I really miss him...
I'm so sorry...
Darling and I were happily smsing each other yesterday... until he said something about going to flirt... Being an emotional, easy-to-switch-on-the-wrong-switch, unreasonable, 'small-gas' little girl, I got flared up even if he told me the real truth that it's just a joke. And that's where all hell broke lose... I was thinking, 'Okay~ You think its funny huh!? I'll show you what's funny...' So I fired at him through sms... And he got the wrong idea... I didn't mean that I don't like him going out meeting his friends or whatever. I just got my emotions into me again... At that very moment, I really realize the meaning 'Disaster comes out from the mouth'... I felt very regret...
I know he really won't go out to flirt, not only because I trust him, it's because he proved to me. But I just got overwhelmed by the feeling that I want to overpower him back so I yelled. And it was a very very wrong move... Gosh, my ego is one big pain in the butt... I am super EGOISTIC! Ego, ego, ego, it's always my pride and my ego... and my damn stupid emotions... How I wish I can put these down and be a truly perfect girl that he sees me as...
Even though he put all the blame on himself... Even though he don't wanna admit that it's my fault to begin with... In truth, the problem starts from me... A big sticky note to self for once and for all... "NEVER LET EGO AND PRIDE GET IN BETWEEN US ANYMORE"...
How egoistic I can be? I'll tell you how... Sometimes, I get a very ticked off when people tried to teach me something I don't know. Yes, my pride ate me up and I lose my rationality to it... I'm still finding ways to get over it... Maybe I need a psychologist... Yes, I'm serious...
He hasn't talked to me for the whole day. Even though I sent a single sms to him, he still replied me coldly... I guess he hasn't finished getting mad over the whole incident and over me (even if he doesn't admit he is)... I felt very bad since last night till now... I wonder what is he doing... Sulking is definitely... But... I really miss him a lot... He once said I can leave him be and he'll find me back after he felt alright... But waiting is difficult... I don't dare to bother him... But I really miss him...
I'm so sorry...
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
他
虽然他看起来傻里傻气的，可是我看到了他认真的一面。
虽然有时他很孩子气，可是我看到了他成熟的一面。
别人看他可能会觉得他吊儿郎当，其实他处事很有条理。
有时他也有不可理喻的时候，可是他只是为了他重要的人而着想。
然而，为了他心爱的人着想的同时，他宁愿牺牲自己的幸福，一心想要他最爱的人过得快乐。
他付出了很多，自己的时间和生活都花在一个女生的身上，陪她做她喜欢做的事情。
虽然有时他失落的时候，说了一些不堪入耳的话，但是这些话，都是因为他想要他喜欢的人幸福。
他做的每一件事情，开心的也好，不开心的也好，都是为了一个他最重要的人。
给我的他，
感谢你为我做的一切，我身为一个在你生活中很普通的女生，我拥有了全世界最幸福的幸福。
别计较谁付出太多，谁应该得到更多。
别只一直太过为我着想。
这些是不需要去想。
我只想要珍惜我拥有你在我的世界里。
只是想开心得和你过日子。
谢谢你
我爱你
虽然有时他很孩子气，可是我看到了他成熟的一面。
别人看他可能会觉得他吊儿郎当，其实他处事很有条理。
有时他也有不可理喻的时候，可是他只是为了他重要的人而着想。
然而，为了他心爱的人着想的同时，他宁愿牺牲自己的幸福，一心想要他最爱的人过得快乐。
他付出了很多，自己的时间和生活都花在一个女生的身上，陪她做她喜欢做的事情。
虽然有时他失落的时候，说了一些不堪入耳的话，但是这些话，都是因为他想要他喜欢的人幸福。
他做的每一件事情，开心的也好，不开心的也好，都是为了一个他最重要的人。
给我的他，
感谢你为我做的一切，我身为一个在你生活中很普通的女生，我拥有了全世界最幸福的幸福。
别计较谁付出太多，谁应该得到更多。
别只一直太过为我着想。
这些是不需要去想。
我只想要珍惜我拥有你在我的世界里。
只是想开心得和你过日子。
谢谢你
我爱你
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