Back to half of my old self...

I'm back to my old self!! Wee!!... Ok, maybe not entirely but still, I'm back and jumping around...

It's all thanks to you guys out there... Thanks for your concern... Sorry to make you guys worry, lol. Especially to Shi-chan! XD Yeah, your boss can still go on a killing spree and hunt that cute bassist down, don't worry!! Thanks to dear for understanding me... Thanks to Ray who listened to me! ^^ 咩咩,BOBO,IB and my 'daughter' 小翼, Thanks for your support! Knowing you guys are one of the best things that ever happened to me! Even though we're from different countries, music still brought us together. And, lui ah lui, don't keep saying you want to hug our neighbor Mr. Shimizu Takuya, your dad Nobubu will get jealous. You don't want him to start singing, do you? XD Yesh, I know you can't stand your dad's singing! XD~

Well, wrote so many nonsense, it's proof that I'm back to my old self! ^^
だから心配しないでね！私もっと頑張りますわ！

Whatever it is, I'll try to stay strong...
No matter how weak I am, I will stay strong...
弱いだから...
強くなりたいんだ...

恋

さっき車の中の時、私我慢した。。。

部屋を着いたの時、涙が溢れてた。。。

泣いたねぇ。。。何のためを泣いた？恋？

昔の日、あたし自分自身を約束した。。。絶対に恋の為に泣いてない。。。

でも今が泣いた。。。ダメですね。。。私は。。。本当にダメな人ですねぇ。。。自分の約束を背いた。。。

本当の泣いたの訳、実は私も分からない、ただ心の中に、すごく痛いを感じた。。。だから泣いた。。。


あまり甘いな感じ。。。

あまり苦しいな感じ。。。

これは恋？本当に恋なの？

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私。。。馬鹿みたい。。。

All I think of is other people's feelings...

What about my own? I swallowed them up quietly...

I'm used to it... Since young, since forever...

Because I'm afraid if I ever say anything, things will change for the worst...

Because I'm not a person who's good with words...

Because I'm weak, but I want to pretend that I'm strong...

Pathetic...

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The more I tried to understand your feelings...
The more I can't understand my own feelings...
The more suffer I felt...
I'm sorry... I'm just a normal human being...
I don't know how much longer I can hold back...
I'm afraid that I'll just break down right in front of you...

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’この世は素敵であふれてるよ’って教えた
探し続ける。。。その素敵なもの。。。

GO-ON

UVERworld finally released their PV for their upcoming single 'GO-ON'... I can't wait for the download so went to Youtube to watch it first. XD The song is AWESOME! They improved again. ^^ I love the beats, love the guitar and what more, I love Takuya's voice!

Some how the PV reminds me a little bit of their 'Gekidou' PV... XD The ドS song... XD... The camera focused too much on Takuya... Yes I know he's the vocalist and the most handsome on in there =3=, hey, c'mon, focus more on my cute bassist back there who's name is Nobuto and the cute guitarist who makes a perfect husband called Katsuya! XD Didn't even get to see much of Shintarou and Akira... And there's this weird animal head ballet dancers wriggling their way in front of a singing Takuya... And there's 2 Takuyas!?!!? Ok, I'm obviously in my fangirl mode now.

Ok... The video's been removed because of the clever Sony Music, I'll just put some screencaps instead. XD I wanted to put animations but.... Troublesome, don't know how to make... But Nobuto playing the bass is better sen animated... =3=...


=A= Takuya, even though you looked really cool like that, mic stands aren't for throwing my dear...

Takuya VS 3 Unidentified living creatures...?? =A=

He smirked! XD

=A= Director, hire me la... I can dance better than them and I'm sexier! (bricked)

信人～～ XD I love to watch him play the bass!! Leader克哉と彰ちゃんもかっこいい～

XD I like it when guys wear collared shirts!! Especially white and red... XD

琢也君が二つ！？

I want them to be together!!! (Since when I supported YAOI?)
いいぁ～！（私の）琢也君を触らないで～～ >o<

信人かっこいい～


Finally got a nice screencap on Shintarou. =A=, Shi-chan gomen, hard to get a nice pic of him since he keep on shaking his head and @$^#@#ing with the drums... And go blame the director for only favoring Takuya...

This ain't me... XD

Coz I felt like doing so...=A=


(=A= I'm sorry Nobubu!!! He's just a plushie!!! >"< I promise I'll give you lots of it when I CATCH you in person!!! XD)


大きいなワンコだね～


でも可愛いじゃん... Nice to hold even though it's really big XD

Omg, this isn't me! This ain't me at all! I won't do something like that! XD~ Yes people, I'm in self-denial... Shi-chan, if you ever saw this, please bash this sheep up! She needs it seriously! Oh, add in Nobubu's share of bricks too please. I need it bad... XD

I'm so slow...

Guess where I am now... I'm in the living room with my laptop. So... Why am I in the living room online and rushing assignment?

Actually... I was doing my assignments while half listening half watching Dane Cook's video. I was laughing out loud at his jokes until I heard my roommate talking in the phone in a weird way. I shifted my headphone and then I realized she was sobbing. =o=" Oh dear... And I was laughing out loud just now... I went downstairs and told Sandra and she told Phoebe... =o=" Geez... I'm so slow... I'm sorry my dear... I didn't mean to be that oblivious... Because my headphone is super big and it covers my ears completely so I have a hard time hearing other people calling me. And I got use to blaring my ears with music while I'm doing my work. So... yeah... gomen ne... I didn't mean to... I hope she's ok...

Online in the living room is nice. It's cool too since I'm just underneath the fan. XD Mm, next time I'll online down in the living room when I'm free. XD

By the way, asked Kor kor about it and he said it's super expensive... Erm... Well... I'll try my best... I'm dragging him out to help me! XD Oh and... bring JC out too to see who she'll hug. Me or Kor? XD Don't hug me, I'm not les! ;P

=A=

Came back from Penang Bon Odori trip. It's my first time going to Bon Odori. XD I had load of fun. But of course, I hid my whole trip from mommy dearest. ^^;; She has been helping my sis with her SPM art project without enough sleep so I don't want her to worry and end up not sleeping again. To her, no sleep = end of the world XD. Anyway... I had a hard time making up excuses (aka lying) to her. She said something that I nearly LOLed... She said, "If you kept making up lies and you're sneaking out behind my back, then you're not Cindy." I nearly laughed. XD Sorry, I know she's very worried and kinda mad but I find it quite funny. What? You think I'll sit back at home, do nothing and stare at nothing (I'll stare at Nobubu! XD)?

Sometimes I really felt annoyed by her overworriness and naggings. But then... Not all of the people actually have the chance to have parents worrying over them. That's why, sometimes I felt that I'm actually a very spoiled child. She just wants what's best for me but I kept on disobeying her. I'm sorry... Really... I felt guilty... But... What's actually best for me, that's for me myself to judge. I just hope she doesn't worry too much and... cut down on HK drama series... = = It's poisoning her imagination...

Well, enough of that... Next semester I'm only taking 1 subject. Only 3 hours class for both Thursday and Friday. The rest of the week, I'm free. I'm planning to work and earn some $$ XD. I need $$$$... For what? Mm... Sore wa ne... himitsu desu! Sugoku ookii na himitsu desu yo~! ^^

Sleep-deprived

o_O Cannot sleep last night! What's wrong with me~~??? Wro-o-ong with me~~~??? 囧... LeeHom's song... Anyway... I think I spoiled a lot of things... I spoiled my specs, spoiled my digicam battery and even spoiled my own health. Biological clock went haywire. Could it be because I've been taking too much naps? XD I think I'm getting heaty... I have an ulcer at the back of my tongue now. Not that it really hurts but it's uncomfortable... Maybe because of the heat I can't sleep also... Drink more water... *nod nod*

Can't sleep last night and today's suppose to be the busiest day. But good news is... today's Biochem lab last session~~~~~~ =u= Yeah~ No more lab for this stupid subject~ I hate this subject! Drives people nuts.

POed....

I'm DAMN PISSED. = =## I had gastric and then I wanted to finish my lab report today. But the ****ing stupid connection went haywire AGAIN... I feel like swearing out loud... = =

But then in the end I managed to finish my lab report, squeezing my brain dry for the discussion part. *sigh* Felt so stress. Anyway, 1 down, 6 more to go. After next Monday's test I can relax a little. The rest of the work are kinda easy... I hope...

Well, on the bright side, at least tomorrow I have classes only up till 11.30 in the morning and no lab in the afternoon. ^^

= = And I have idiots as group members for lab session...

Work on Sunday

Last night kept working on my assignment until I forgot about the time. Until I got a SMS from dear then only I realized it's already 1.30am... =A= Been sitting in front of my laptop for hours and I only manage to finish half of my introduction for my assignment. Since it's already 1.30am, decided to go to sleep. But didn't really get to sleep well also... =A=

Woke up to a cold morning today. I'm thinking I can finish most of my assignment and reports so decided to woke up early and start doing it. But whenever I look at my papers and Microsoft Word, I felt sleepy. XD... Anyway, have to finish everything before Thursday. Aa... I felt so lazy... Especially facing all the things that I have absolutely no idea how to do... Plain torture... T_T Felt like I'm at the verge of breaking down...

Went out and eat dinner with my housemates at Fun OK. I had mild gastric before I ate. We played Cho di there (Ivy is queen of gamble... oTZ) until 9pm. The pain came back when I reached home. But it wasn't really that bad, just that I can't stand straight. Anyway, took my bath and continued doing work. =A= Don't know how to do... I felt the stress coming back.

By the way, I found out what made me that emo...

Quiet weekend...

Quiet quiet weekend... He's going to Singapore today. Nulu may be going to Matthias's family's home. Don't know where Shi-chan went but she told me she'll be disappearing for a few days starting yesterday. Housemates all went out on their own. Cannot spam JU because the connection sucks (女儿~儿子~妈妈对不起你们啊...T_T). Basically, I'm spending the weekend on my own... with my work accompanying me... = ="

Anyway, woke up in mid-morning and started doing laundry. Then went to Giant for some shopping. Huan Ting invited me to go to Pizza Hut for lunch. Apparently, she saw me passing by when I was on my way to Giant. So I joined her, Joyce and Weina for pizza. ^^ Well, at least it wasn't entirely alone. Anyway, after our lunch, I went to shop. %#$^#$^... Spend so much... =o=

Came back in the afternoon, continue doing laundry, have a little nap because of a minor headache and then started doing my reports. Left a few more and I'll be free. After that I'll have to start revisions already. Need to prepare early.

Iris and Phoebe wasn't back yet at around 5.30pm... I'm guessing there won't be dinner tonight... *self-pitying mode*... T___________________T All alone, no dinner, a lot of work... T_T... Nah, I'm not some spoiled idiot who only knows how to self-pity. Anyway, doing work alone while listening to music is kinda enjoying (am I consoling myself? = =). Yeah, enough of that... *switches off self-pitying mode* I've got a lot of work to do... After all the work I can relax for a day or two before studying again. Plus, if I get bored, I still have my DS... ^^

Aa... Suddenly my mood turned better during the night... ^^;; Bipolar mood disorder... 1 minute down, the next minute happy... Anyway~ I'll make the best out of my precious weekends! ^^

I want...

1. This Roxy Swimsuit! Saw it in KK's Warisan Square, but it's white in color. I prefer the white one. XD I want~~ But Roxy=Branded=Expensive... = =
2. My MP3 Player back at home...
3. The Ultraman car accessory set! ><>
4. An off-shoulder top
5. A new pair of high-heel straps
6. A yukata
7. External HDD... 囧... UVERchan is eating up my computer space...
8. Portable speakers... But it won't be of much use since I can't open it when my roommate is in... = =
9. A Siberian Husky...
10. to try getting drunk for once... 囧... But stomach cannot stand alcohol already...
11. to BEAT MOAI 2!!!!
12. A nicer fur coat
13. to go traveling... especially Japan~
    
14. a wedding dress... (囧, wore it before, even took a picture ady, what for I still want it!?)
15. a tuner...
16. A Dooodoll! Blinkie~~~~ X3
17. Kon plushie... XD
18. Pati-Pati arrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!! (no money T_T)
19. my stomach ache to go away... =3=
20. to play my piano... (hands getting itchy ady...)
21. Piano scores!!!!!! (But all of them are over RM50)
    

In the end, the most needed thing is still $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.... No $$ then don't even think of buying all these things up there...

Happy 4th Anniversary

Happy 4th Birthday to UVERworld!!! 4周年おめでとうございます！！ あなた達の音楽は最高です！愛してるよ！ From their major debut with their single 'D-technolife', which is used as the 2nd opening theme for Bleach, till now with their latest album 'AwakEVE' and their upcoming single 'GO-ON', they've start off small from Shiga's Huckleberry to their dream, Tokyo's Budoukan. I wonder what's it felt like to achieve a lifelong goal...

咩咩's 直笔メッセージwas chosen to be put on their official homepage. XD 清水太~恭喜你啊!! 孩子他爸特别要求放在中间的! XD Lol, congrats to her. Anyway, I can't resist temptation and went to watch the 2nd part of their スーパーライブ, it was so touching when Takuya was singing 'Discord~your voices mix~' and he asked the fans to hold up their light cellphones and asked the lighting to dim the lights. It's like a massive ocean of stars swaying to the song... And then in the end, they used Just Melody as their ending song... T_T So touched... I love their music. It somehow made me felt that there's nothing to worry about and I can take on anything that go against my way. 信人師匠still rocked on that bass! XD Go 師匠！I love you to bits! Love the bass solos!

Anyway, I found out that almost all the Japanese used Docomo's folding cellphone. Some how, it reminds me of something咩咩and Chocho said about the danger of the phone being snapped into half. 一折即爆! XD Snap it in half and throw it to that person. XD Muhahaha...

UVERの皆さん、今まですべてありがとうございます。あなた達本当にいろいろのことを私に教えてくれた。将来あなた達の音楽を絶対に全世界を伝えてきます！
もう一度４周年おめでとうございます！
Happy 4th Anniversary!
UVERworld最高！＾＾

Random stuff

Um... eto... I want to write a lot of things but I don't know where to start... Well, here goes...

• Cat ah cat... What happened to you!? Yes I know you're playful. You don't seem to... um... think about consequences before doing something... But I never thought you would end up like this... Not that I understand you very well now since we started drifting apart after Form 2. We were very close in the past until people who don't know us thought we're twins... = =" Gosh, what happened to you? Haiz, this sheep is worry about you la...
• Been going around in KL and I found out that there's so much more things I haven't seen before. There's too many of them, I can't remember. It's really interesting tho. Tawau is so small that people who don't know them might even think I come from another country. XD Alright, maybe not like that but very few people had heard of my hometown. I'll take pictures and upload them in here when I went back for sem break.
  
• Running a shop ain't easy at all. Well, even running a small shop ain't easy too. Especially dealing with 'crazy' customers and snobby kids. Need really good communication skills which I'm very weak at... I'm starting to think is it a good idea for me to be a nutritionist/dietitian... It's a consulting job after all...
• Went to a pet fair in Midvalley and there's so many doggies! >_<><>

• ... = =" Mom mentioned about that senpai back in high school. Said something about he sent a message to my high school for their school anniversary event and it's in the local newspapers. Swt... His business is none of my concern. Why does Mom have to bring him up anyway?
• My bottle of blood!

Nah, not my blood. It's actually real sheep's blood. XD For Biochem experiment.

• Milo... Shiro... Both of you 2 young masters... T_T why did you killed my green-colored pen and my dearest Luffy plushie and... and... and... 囧... If it weren't for your cute looks and a certain someone, you both are in big trouble now...

... Alright, enough rambling, back to work... Hectic week of the month...