The ugly side of me

Since young I've keep feeling jealous of people who are better than me
Especially people who are close to me
Family, friends... those who I think I should be better than them...
When they got better than me... I got jealous...

Especially my sister... My one and only sister...
A very big contradiction to my personality...
She is better than me in some things...
I got jealous... I felt ugly...

Sometimes I wonder...
Why do I feel jealous? What am I jealous of?
The fame?
Why do I need it anyway?
What's the use of it?
So... Why do I feel jealous in the first place...?
Why?

It's all rebellious youngster talk right now...
And I came to a conclusion...
I have someone who sees me, cares about me and gives me full attention on only me...
Why do I see myself as not worthy?

Green-eyed monster aka jealousy...
May you be buried in the depths of my heart and never resurface ever...